||[Nov. 15th, 2008|09:32 pm]
i'm still a little miffed about the anonymous comments left on my last entry. If only because like I said...I hate being a failure or an annoyance to anyone and I like to try and fix my mistakes.|
I can't do that when this person won't tell me who they are.
I threw around a few text messages because not many people I actually know and consider friends read this. But it did me no good. Everyone had no idea what I was talking about.
it's just kind of aggravating but it seems I just have to grit my teeth and bare the fact that i can't please everybody and that everyone has the right to hold a certain opinion about me. so whatever I suppose.
To that person in particular whoever you may be: I'm sorry I haven't lived up to your expectations, and to be honest I don't know that I ever will. I have a hard time really depending on anyone who might actually continually be there for me. I do push people away. I know that. And though I regret it...until I can really get a handle on myself, no one else will ever really be able to handle me. I don't hold that against anyone but myself. We've all got our faults and our issues that need to be solved. And one day I might get a handle on mine. If you choose to stick around, then I appreciate the company, the advice, the everything you probably provide for me. But if you don't, i won't be upset with you. I make my own bed. And I'll lie in it when the time comes.