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Distances travelled; miles beyond miles left to go. [Jan. 5th, 2016|08:58 am]
Mally
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My son stands in the pale white light streaming in from a frosted window, pretending that his painted rocks are being attacked and I chuckle.
He's going to be five in 3 months and 4 days.
Five?!
How is that possible?
What is time?
It's moments slipped through fingertips when I am not paying attention.
I've been absent minded so often, I just never saw this coming.
My life has changed, again and again.
Are you surprised?
I'm not.
Transition is my way of life. Change is my only constant and I am perfectly okay with that.
Finally.
Even in that, I find myself standing as someone else's rock.
I love to be depended on.
I just hope that I've picked the right place this time.
I feel at home again.
Safe.
Supported.
Loved.
Liked, even.
Four months have gone by and I don't find myself making lists of reasons to stay (and for once it's because it doesn't make sense to me to leave)
Yet another version of me.
Polyamorous
Pansexual
Creative
Poetic
Political
Kind
Caring
Emotional
Affectionate
Strong
Determined
I feel like I know myself...as much as I can.
I trust me. I know i'm trying.
I am not my depression, I am not my past, I am not my mistakes. I am not the pain given to me.
I'm just me.
Happily.

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